Ever since my child was a toddler, he was always withdrawn, angry, jealous, competitive, and hyper. As I go back and look at pictures and videos, I see a baby versions of what I see in my 14 year old now.
As a mother of four, I really feel I finally have a handle on dealing with babies, but once they get into school, and GOD knows middle/high school (teenagers), I feel like I’m dropping the ball. There are so many programs for parents revolving around the newborn to 5 year old range, however, then what? There are not ANY guides, manuals, home visiting programs, etc, to aid parents in raising children beyond 5 (at least where I live), unless they are troubled. It feels like a trial and error system…practice makes perfect I guess.
There are days when, I want to just throw my hands up in the air in failure, and simply count down the days to graduation. How do something so sweet turn into something so menacing? Why and how do we become the enemy and the bad guy overnight? My son and I have been to soooooooooooooooo (yes that many o’s) doctors, therapist, counselors, medication and specialist I’m SICK! HOWEVER, despite my urge to give in, I don’t and I won’t (I still countdown to graduation as if I’m really going to be free). I just keep trucking, and trying out the numerous recommendations I get from these doctors and pray for the rainbow when the rain clears!